For the one I love..

Steal me away from myself..
Hide me somewhere in your heart..
May I not get lost all alone.. May I never stray away from you!
Come to me, embrace me..
Come to me and take me in your arms..
NOW & FOREVER..
Fill in the void in my heart, I promise I will do the same too..
No one knows what will happen tomorrow, so do everything today..
With me and only me my dear..
Perhaps not everybody will approve, but I hope your heart will..

Promises..

I can't promise that I would give you the whole world, but I promise I can try to give you a very happy life..

I can't promise that I will never yell at you, but I promise you that I will try to be patience most of the time..

I can't promise you that I will never do any mistakes or disappoint you, but I promise I will try to correct all my flaws and fault..

I can't promise you that I will catch you every time you fall, but I promise you that I would be right next to you when you need any help..

I can't promise you that OUR love story will last forever just like in fairy tales but I promise you that I will never forget all the memories that we created together..

In another thousand years to come or more, if I don't get the chance to let you know how much I love you, I hope one day with your own understandings you will know how much I've loved you and created a life in the back of my brain.

I may not be the prettiest but I promise you, I have a pretty heart that will look after your heart.

                                                 

Stuck in LOVE.

Do i love you or do i like you?

I'm stuck not knowing whether i love you or i JUST like you...
But if i really do love you, it stills hurts me so bad because i have to keep it to myself..
I want you to know, yet i want to keep it to myself..
I want you to be happy but at the same time i want him to know that i feel for you day and night, and i want you here right now.
The time apart is like living without air.. Impossible to breathe..
I NEVER want to lose you.

A glimpse of light
In the midst of night
When everything is as black as the galaxy without stars
When things are as thick as a red velvet blood
A stained soul is who I am
Without you

A ray of hope
Deep inside the abyssal sea
When my soul is lifeless as the Dead Sea
When my heart is frozen as hard as a diamond
A wondering ghoul is what I am
Without you

Without you I feel empty as a void
Loss with no place to go
Incomplete like an unfinished puzzle scattered on the ground
Unsatisfied of this everlasting desire
Broken
Without you

A poem from him, just for me!

Anonymous, who are you?
Randomly, how did you come?
Chosen, by whom?
High and low I still search for you..
Amazingly, I finally found you..
Neither less nor neither more..
As powering to my heart and soul you will always be..


That is a new beginning. And it's just the star, virtues if not shared means nothing. Indeed love means you and me ETERNALLY.

Just A Kiss - Lady Antebellum Lyrics

A song for you and me! :)

Love is my witness..

I hope he is my soul mate. It was a blessing that God sent me. He is such a great person. Not only he looks good on the outside but he has a great personality. He always cares for me. I know that no matter what happens I can always count on him. He always respects me as no one has ever done before. He tries to be a better person every day and makes me one too. Even though sometimes we have our differences, he always tries to give the best of him and overcome them. He tries to be patient, kind, he’s not proud, he is not self seeking, he always tries to protect me and gives his best so that our relationship works. There are very few guys like him left in this world. I hope that this is just the beginning of this wonderful relationship, and that we have many years to come.

A girl story

Have you ever experienced love at first sight? I’ve never believe in such things not till I experienced how it felt. There is this one person who changed my way of thinking tremendously. I wouldn’t say he is my first love, because I’ve had many relationships before this. But with him, it’s a different. He’s the kind of guy anyone can go on talking. He would do anything just to help someone. Every minute I spend with him are so precious till I wish I could just stop time and appreciate the moments. No matter what we do, we always knew how to have fun and good time together. I can say, we both just knew exactly how to keep each other entertained. I've known him for almost a year, and I would say it’s the best year of my entire life. We've learned, grown and experienced many things together. This has helped our relationship to grow stronger.
The first time I got to know him was through the net. Randomly going through my Facebook profile and trying to hit on some guys as usual. Sipping through a glass of hot chocolate on a cozy Sunday, there comes my hero sending me a random message. I wasn't exactly thinking at that moment and I’ve always been the kind of girl who doesn't reply unknown messages. So I started doing some ‘research’ about the guy. It turned out to be we've known each for months but never did keep in touch through Facebook. After a long gap, he being an artist sends ‘sorry’ messages to almost all of his fans and friends for not keeping in touch. I was very much curious indeed so I decided to reply him and get to know him a little. Our friendship was going on for far too long through the net so we decided to exchange number just so we could keep in touch more often.
After almost 2weeks of being in touch through the mobile, he decided to meet me up. I still remember exactly how I felt, how he looked, what we did and many more. Meeting him was the best part of my life. This incident took place in a mall, surrounded with an ocean of people and he managed to spot me in that crowd. His observation was very much great but I was lost because I didn't exactly know where he was. When he came down from the steps I was very much surprised because he didn't look anything like what I've seen in the pictures on the net. He was in his black t-shirt and faded grey jeans with a cap. He came closer to me and my heart was beating out of my chest.
He wasn't tall, dark and handsome but he had this attractive aura with him that drove me crazy. His strong perfume still lingered around me even after I when home. He was dark and had the small Chinese eyes. Covered with hair and he had a cute little tummy which was trying to hide his t-shirt but just had to burst out for some air. He wasn't built nor was he fat, he was just chubby and cute. As he started to speak, I noticed he was a chatterbox. He looked, smelled and sounded awesome. Just my type!
After that first day of meeting him, I couldn't help myself but to think of him. He wasn't just cute but he had such great personality. I was very eager to meet him. I was nervous but as time pass by I started being very comfortable around him. He made my everyday a new day, he made me feel so alive. He was polite, friendly, caring and sweet. He never failed to amaze me every day. Every minute I spent with him, there was always something new and interesting that I learned from him. He taught me so much about life and people, but mostly he taught me about myself. I knew he was a genuine person, so I always tried to follow his footsteps as much as possible. As time went by, we became good friends and later on, more than friends. He made me feel like the most important person in the world. He earned my respect. He is always willing to help others when they’re in need. He is very goal oriented and will fight for anything he believes is right. In conclusion, he is my soul mate. It was a blessing that God sent me. He is such a great person. Not only he looks good on the outside but he has a great personality. He always cares for me. I know that no matter what happens I can always count on him. He always respects me as no one has ever done before. He tries to be a better person every day and makes me one too. Even though sometimes we have our differences, he always tries to give the best of him and overcome them. He tries to be patient, kind, he’s not proud, he is not self seeking, he always tries to protect me and gives his best so that our relationship works. There are very few guys like him left in this world. I hope that this is just the beginning of this wonderful relationship, and that we have many years to come. 

The Beatles - I Want To Hold Your Hand

Beyond L.O.V.E !

Me and you, what are we? Things get screwed only when we start doubting our relationship. But without a doubt, I know I'm falling for you as each and every day passes by.
Not knowing what the future brings, wishing that i met you before this isn't going to change anything.
The way you make me feel today is what means the most to me..Thank you is what i would say.
You came into my life, washed away all my sadness! Filled me up with joy, love and laughter. You never once failed to make me happy and i know you will never fail to do so.
Guys tell me the love me all the time, i guess it just makes me feel like they want something from me. But when it came to you, when you told me you love me.. I knew it was coming from the heart cos i saw it through your eyes.
I'm afraid to lose you darling, maybe because i just love you beyond anything.. It's a promise I will never leave you at any circumstances.
I promise you, the life we're going to live it wont be an ordinary life but it will be amazing and just slightly crazy.
Whatever it is, everything feels worth it when I'm around you. :)
I love you hun hun..today and everyday...

Twisted in twister.

Friendship is a twist and turn relationship.. We often find goodness and at times we can go "Oh my goodness".


So this is how the goodness became "OH MY GOODNESS", thanks to Mr. Matthew Mafosa..

•  Matthew Mafosa, 27 years old from the metropolitan city. Single pilot who is looking for a "co-pilot". Family orientated and the only child. Travels all around the world and yet still has a very mysteries personality.

A,B,C and D, typical down town girls! Has been friends for quiet some time and loves hanging out with each other.
One night at a pool party, Matthew randomly approached a girl which was Ms.A! Like every other typical girl being approached by an tall,dark and handsome man, Ms.A was very excited, indeed but she did not made it obvious. Matthew was quite a chatter box and A had a good time talking to him. Sweet as sugar he was to her and they decided to exchange their cell numbers just so they could hang on again.


Matthew and A got close and they were more or less like good buddies and they hung out almost every weekend. Both of them loved outdoor activities so every weekend was an adventurous one for them. Camps, jungle tracking, movies and etc.  Drive town to town and having crazy conversations and coming home feeling super exhausted is what they both love doing. Turn out to be, they were good company for each other.


Knowing Ms.A for quite some time, Matthew became very curious to know who her friends are because he noticed she hung out with him all the time. Does this means, A has got no friends? This curiosity needed to be answered so Matthew started asking A about her friends. A, started telling about her friends which was B,C and D! The joy and fun which this girls had, triggered Matthew and he wanted to know them even more. Matthew asked A, if its okay for him to meet this girls one at a time and she agreed. Matthew coincidently met B walking in a mall with A one day and that's when B was introduced to Matthew. B was busy checking out stuffs and wasn't really bothered to know about him but Matthew had much interest on B. As days goes by, Matthew tried getting B's attention but did not succeed and this got A thinking, " Why is Matthew showing so much of interest on B?"
Knowing that B is not responding to him, he decided to get to know another one of A's friend which is D. 
They clicked very much at the first meeting and it did not please A very much. They were talking and getting to know each other and D started showing lots of interest on Matthew. This interest which D has on Matthew made him feel weird and he could not stand her, furthermore it started jeopardizing the relationship that he had with A. 
All of a sudden, he caught an eye on C and they begin to know each other.... So A has been observing Matthew closely and A seems to be in a confused state of mind. 
How could we judge, Matthew as a person? Would you still continue to approach Matthew as usual or will you just stay as friends?
Last but not least, who should be trusted?


p/s perkara ini bukan satu isu yang perlu dibesar-besarkan. Ia hanyalah sebuah cerita rekaan dan tiada kena-mengena dengan mana-mana pihak. Komen dan pendapat anda dialu-alukan.

Dad :')

In everybody's life there will be one hero and usually it's a male figure! Sad to say, i can't call my dad the real hero but yet he will always be my HERO :) 
Perhaps, there is a reason why people have to leave our life's or we have to let them go.. But till today, I'm very much confused appa.
19 years of life, I've practically grown without a dad! Sad to say that even when i had one, he wasn't really there.
Till today, i ask myself 'appa, do you think of me as much as i think of you?' ! Maybe, due to the ego you have and the same ego we've inherited, now we behave like we don't even know each other!
I still remember appa, you use to come back home once a month with a box of chocolate just for me. I use to stay awake and sit in the couch with is your favorite and wish it was your lap appa.. :( With the noise of your car and the noise of you walking, i will be running around the house telling everybody that "APPA, is back home"
I did not really get it why, everybody at home wasn't excited as me, instead they hid themselves in the room the moment you came home.. Till one day, i started realizing things. When i got to know the truth, and it broke me apart..
Question were clouding above my mind, and yet i wanted only you. No matter what amma said i WANTED ONLY YOU appa :( But you were just too busy with others, not realizing how much all of miss you as a man of the house and also as a dad.
Maybe you might think we ain't good kids, but pa we're the best kids anyone can have..
Deep down, i know there is a good soul hidden but why must you be like this?
What did we even do to you, for us not to hve a good dad? Is that too much to ask pa.. To just be with us and not having family out of the house??
I thought love was all about putting the needs of the on your love above yours? I guess, it wasn't in your case eh?
It was all about you and not us.. :( Pa, you know i am all your chittukuruvi right or am i not that anymore?
I still remember i made a promise to when i was a little girl that i would take care of you when you get old, and now I'm telling you appa.. I will keep my words close to my heart..
But you really need to know one thing, you've disappointed all us especially me..
I miss you pa,i wish things can be fixed but it's just too late..

Goodbye my love..

I know once i told you i want you back, i cried for you!! I begged you but you left me stranded.. You told me moving on was the best.. You told me things are never going to work.. I didn't want to believe your words!! Remember when i cried to you a thousand times? I told you everything but you did not even tear.. You know my feelings? It never crossed my mind for us to say GOODBYE! It's a miracle.. But im not lost, im not gone.. I haven't forget.. This feeling that i can take no more.. I can feel everything falling down and im not coming back around again.. Remember when, we were together till the end!! Where do we belong now? I don't regret for what i've lost, cos losing you has taught me alot of things! You were my hero, but heroes can't always be heroes can they? It's getting hard to pretend, and im not coming back again. Im sorry, if i've hurt you darling! But i just can't come back to you! I really love you, but NOT YOU!! I love the OLD YOU !! Where has that boy gone?
I can't hide what has come, i have to go... And leave you alone! But always remember that i love you so..
Goodbye sunshine, take care of yourself! :)
If i show you, get to know you and hold you just for today! Im not gonna let you go, tell me that you feel the same too.
I don't want to look back, something in the past will never change.. Im for real, are you for real? I can't help it.
All i know is, i love the guy i made love too, not the guy who is talking to me today.. Im learned how to move on darling, but it doesnt mean i've stop loving you. Don't kill the littlest love i have towards you..
If we get back together, YES i know we would be the greatest couple but things wont be the same. It's all fake already, not you but ME :')
I've learned how lie..
I've told you many times not to change! Darling there is a dark cloud above you, i've always told you to smile but why must you not listen to me? Things would have been the same if you came back to me when i needed you the most..
Darling, i was there once awhile ago, but now it's hard to be stuck with the people you love when there isn't anything real..
I wish you could be happy instead, but i loved you the best i can... You're not the only one who's been through.. I've been there all alone and now so are you.. I just want you to know.. It's not your fault.. Goodbye my love.......http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-GX_OFQ-s0&feature=related

I miss you! :(

Sitting here, wishing i could see you, listen to your voice, hold your hand and  hear those crazy things you will always say. The way you make me laugh till it hurts my stomach! I miss all that. Lonely night, is it meant for me?
I don't know why, but i miss you like nobody can ever miss you.
Do you miss me too darling or am i just day dreaming? Hurmmmmm, i wish you would come back and light up my life once again.
I really miss you.
I love you lots darling..

This is how i will feel, if i ever let you go :(

You may have think that I'm hurting you and i am not appreciating you. But baby that's just how you see things! Baby, i know you're hurt because i saw it all over your face. Baby, tell me who is going to replace me? I should have known that it was all going to come to an end. Baby, i'm not blaming you nor am i blaming myself! But i just feel you're not giving me a chance to show you how much i love you. I don't want to be lonely, but I'm all alone right now. I miss you babe ;( I can't believe it's all over, i thought this love will never over. I wish i could grab you and just tell you how much I've missed you but I guess it's better if i just keep everything inside of me. I thank god, for sending you to me darling. I thank you, for molding me to be a woman. I love and appreciate everything that you've done for me. We saw our future together, it was good. Do you still remember the times when we use to just lie on the bed and talk our hearts out? Do you miss me as much as i miss you? Darling, i still have dreams about you, but sadly I've got no one to share it with. Will you be mine once again? 

I may have treated you like a trash, told you harsh things but trust me abie! It was never from the heart.I promised i will hurt you or let anyone hurt you. I'm your shield !! Till this very moment I am keeping all my promises. I love you without expectations and now i wish you would love me back.

You're my bestfriend,boyfriend,dad and darling husband!

Every now and then i fall apart, and i need you now tonight and i need you more than anything else.

Baby, i really feel like I'm chasing the shadow. Once upon a time i was falling in love and now I'm only falling apart. Once upon a time there was light in my life and now there is only love in the dark.

You know if i were given one chance to do whatever i want with time i would go back and change what went wrong between us. But as you said it's not easy to feel the same again, i just wish you would give us another try ;( Your heart is my home, now I'm homeless :(

To all the girls :)

Because of girls like you, we kinda girls get bad name. :(

Don't get what i mean? Well, let me explain it to you darling ! This goes to all girls who are trying to prove something really stupid.

Girls, in order for us to survive in this world we need DIGNITY ! And the only way to get that is by not being a SLUT,CHEAP ASS,DESPERADO or etc etc. I've seen, lately there are many girls who are basically being cheap. If you're lack of attention get it from ONE guy not the whole world.Showing your cleavage or taking pictures that will expose you in certain ways, don't think guys will drool over you. They will either just look at you and give the "sarcastic laughter" or even better, they will start planning how to get between your legs. If you're getting a boyfriend just because of your appearance, trust me it WONT last !! Not even in the next 7 generations ! -______-

I don't blame guys who actually have sex with you kinda girl. I don't see how wrong it can be to actually screw you? Isn't that what you girls are working hard to get? 

To the ones who has a bf, please appreciate your bf and stick with them. Some of us over here are wishing we did not screw things or lost our bf's. Don't flirt when you're in a relationship, it's the worse thing you can ever give to the person who loves you more than they love themselves. If you're telling me that at this "age" you should flirt then DON'T get committed and if you're committed then DON'T FLIRT. See, life's full of choice so choose wisely. As time goes by, we girls are suppose to gain experiences and learn from it. Mold ourselves to be perfect and to be respected for what we are. 

Be choosy when it comes to guys, flirt but keep a limit to it. Nobody is asking you to lock yourself at home and not look at the real world and keep away from guys ! LEARN and DON'T REPEAT. 

Girls, when you're about to be a slut, just keep your mom in your mind. How would you feel if anyone called your mom a SLUT? :O 

Started thinking, how would you mom feel if anyone calls her daughter a SLUT? ;(

I'm here saying this because I've learned and still learning. I know and i would like to share. I was dumb enough to learn the hard way when i could just learn through observation. 

Be a good example to your future daughter, have fun ! But make sure it always stays as a SECRET.

Don't let the secret out, then your life is ruined. 

Lastly, from my point of view ! Boys, thanks for teaching me, using me and dumping me. I learned and I've became cautious in life. :)

Without the wrong one, i wouldn't have know who is the right one for me. 

p/s i hope you girls are not offended but at the same time if you'll don't get offended that shows how dumb you really are :)

Good day ladies :)

Duran Duran - Ordinary World

I love you !

Here, i am writing about this woman i feel like i've known all my life. She's one woman who practically adopted me as her sister/child/friend and till today she is being here. In thin and thick she is the only one i look for! Sometimes, i feel for all the things she has done and all the time she has sacrificed for me maybe i did not pay her back and make her feel appreciated ! But today, I'm writing this just to let you know how much you mean to me. I may have showed you my mood swing but it doesn't mean i don't like you. It's just that when someone gets so comfortable they intend to show their true color and that's what i did. I'm sorry !
I got to know her through my brother. But today even though they've gone on their own ways, she still treats me the same. The first time i got to know was on Diwali, LOL ! Trust me, i could see in her face how much she was freaking out. We weren't close and we did not click on the spot. But as time pass by, i knew she is one gem of a person. She has a good sense of humor, super generous, a good baker, talkative, animal lover and etc. In short i would say, she's one of a kind ! When i finished my f5 and left to Sandakan,Sabah that's when we actually got really close. She was there. texting me almost every weekend just to check on me. I'm lucky that she was being by my side at all time. There wasn't a time she did not tear and share her sadness with me and she has always included me in her happiness too. I love her for what she is. During the times when i was going through turmoils, she was there guiding me and cheering me up. When i enrolled myself in college, she was there supporting and encouraging me. I still remember those times, when finals are nearing she would actually stay awake with me and study. It is all golden memories which i will cherish each day of my life. Thank you !
I just want you to know that people will change like season and people come and go. But no matter what happens and where i will be, i will always love you with all my heart. You've been there for me and it's a promise that i will be there for you.
I dedicate this for you,
Vanapriya Sarawana.

p/s i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you !

The Best Love Story!

October 18,2007 an incident took place. A girl randomly got to know a guy through the net. They chit chatted and through the net the girl started falling for him. It was love at first time, the feeling she had for him was a real beautiful one and finnaly before the himself could utter the word she asked him for his number. That was the time they beginned to be closer and closer and closer. Life isn't always the way you want it to which the girl started realizing. She thought bottling her feelings up aren't gonna be help so she decided to actually confess to the guy that she loves him. One night after Diwali, probably around December she confessed her feelings to the guy but he like a typical JERK did not accept her and they lost contact for almost two or more months. 

At that gap, the girl still was thinking and missing the guy very much but she felt like he did not like her not even a bit !

Then one night, the guy came back to her life :) Yeah, she was the mosst happiest person living on earth.

She never did stop pursuing him, so once again that bold and brave girl confessed her feelings towards that guy but at this very moment she told herself she is not going to give up because she knew how lucky she would be to have him in her life.

But looking at him, she did not give any answer. After that she decided to be quiet and just let things happen on its own.

They were close friends but she lost faith little by little. :(

Finally, few days after new year the girl's grandmother was admitted at the hospital and things were not good at her side.

At that moment, the guy which she loves was being there and giving her company through the tough time.

And again, that silly girl fell for him even more and at 6am she confessed her feeling for him again. :)

She is one girl who doesnt give up, innit? :D

So that's when the guy actually felt her and told to the girl that he would need some time and getting an answer from him was something really good. That girl told the guy he could take as much time as he wants. :)

Guess how long he took?

:))))

Blady seven freaking month, and that girl actually waited for him wit all the patience in the world.

So yeah, after that April 18 2009 they officially became a happy couple. They were the sweetest couple ever !

Life was really good with him, but things did not turn out to be the way she thought it would be.

They broke up after being together for like 2years and few months? Yeah, it might not be like other couple who were together for 8 years and stuff but what they had and the memories they shared was beautiful

They've moved on in life and now they've become strangers once again.

So yeah, why did i waste my time typing out this note? Who is the girl and guy?

Lets make them random people who did their part and when off in their own way once the drama was over.

Chickz and Dudez, seriously life is full of shits. :) Expect the unexpected! And if at all you love a girl or a guy i would say don't love him/her like there is no one else in this world cos in the end it's going to eat you up alive if you find out they're not the one meant for you.

p/s i hope my english is fine :p

Lovess,

Archana Devi :)

The Break Up Survivor

You're my favourite break up story. It's been more than 3months I'm here all alone! This feeling has brought me nothing but sorrowness. The pain of letting go, the pain of walking away, the pain of pretending and etc etc. Are feeling you feeling the same boo? I bet my life, I've became the last person you ever think of, wait !! Am i even in  the list today? :) I ain't mad baby, I'm just upset and disappointed. How did you manage to change yourself to became the person I never thought you would? I fight, i cried, i tried ! Now, I'm walking away. Darling, it doesn't mean I dont love you or I'm afraid to lose you. Furthermore, there is nothing to lose because I've already lost. I'm walking away because i see happiness in your face when I'm not there. The least i can give you right now is this ! Don't you see how much i love you? I've always made you my number one and i guess that where i when wrong. There are many words left unsaid, feelings which are not felt ! You may think I ain't keeping my promises but the fact is I'm still here keeping all my promises close to my heart. What happened to all the good times we had? To all the promises you made. I'm here, all by myself convincing and trying to make myself better, saying " you lost me, i gained many" I thank you for all the things and memories we've shared. I think about you all the time boo, i dream bout you all day long ! You changed me to be someone who i was never meant to be. What hurts the most is the fact that i was so close to you and i had to watch you walk away. How can feelings fade? :(

Baby, I wish you would know how much i've missed you, how much i want you and most of all how much i NEED you.

I've never seen you next to never thats why I saw FOREVER. But i guess you did not see me in that way.

I agree, I took you for granted but now I've came to my realization. Am i just too late? Can't you see baby, you've got me going crazy.

I'm here wondering how can i survive this loneliness. I would risk anything and let go everything just to be with you.

I'm caught up in a circle, confusion is nothing new. Flashback is haunting me ! 

The day i thought everything was perfect that's when things started falling apart. You promised me that you would catch me when i fall !! Was it all a lie? Hurmmmm, after all my pictures fade and darkness has turned to gray.

Watching through the window, I'm wondering if you're okay?!

My heart still says it's YOU and ONLY YOU, but does your heart still says the same? Was i just another girl in your life or am i THE girl in your life?

Should i thank you or should i screw you? Should i love you or should i hate you? I guess I'm torn between all those feeling.

Baby, i felt secured when i was with you ! Now I'm afraid to let myself out again. Since you know i will be lost without you then why did you walk away? Is this a part of your test just so you could know whether I would wait or walk off? Ohh, pls ! Can you see I belong to you?! Every smile i fake today is just to show the world that I've grown to be stronger but no one knows how much of pain I'm going through.

Abie, you know i love you right? Well, i know i do. One day the truth will be revealed and i hope it wont be too late. Come back to me while I'm still waiting! I don't know how long i can go through but i will fight this battle and become the person you first got to know on October18,2007!

The last time we met was on the 20/08/2011. I know I've lost you, but sometimes what has gone missing can be found once again.

I still remember how you look and how you frown when you were with me. I can still feel the barrier we've created. It was like meeting someone you never knew. The pain was something i wish nobody would go through.

The last time i hugged you, i smelled you and had you wrapped around my arms. That was the beautiful moments i will always cherish.

Bye baby! 

p/s ilyhubby!

Grown to be stronger

I've always told myself to move on, to ignore you and just get a life. I tried but i failed not once not twice. But i started realizing ever since you started ignoring me and treating me like a dirt. I've became the last person you ever think of. You really need to know that you ignorance has made me to be stronger. Yeah, i said i'm STRONGER. It's true that i miss you, but not you just the old you is what i miss the most. I've learned that when my world was falling apart the person who was there for me are my friends. I thank god, to give me friends are genuinely nice and to love me for who i am. The pain that you gave me never will i forget. I promised that i will always love and be there for you and till this very moment i am keeping my words. I've wasted my time crying over something that i know i will never get. Whenever they told, he is not worth your tears, i stood up for you and told them you worth every drop. I really was hope i won't get disappointed. But you turned out to be a disappointment in my life.