This is how i will feel, if i ever let you go :(

You may have think that I'm hurting you and i am not appreciating you. But baby that's just how you see things! Baby, i know you're hurt because i saw it all over your face. Baby, tell me who is going to replace me? I should have known that it was all going to come to an end. Baby, i'm not blaming you nor am i blaming myself! But i just feel you're not giving me a chance to show you how much i love you. I don't want to be lonely, but I'm all alone right now. I miss you babe ;( I can't believe it's all over, i thought this love will never over. I wish i could grab you and just tell you how much I've missed you but I guess it's better if i just keep everything inside of me. I thank god, for sending you to me darling. I thank you, for molding me to be a woman. I love and appreciate everything that you've done for me. We saw our future together, it was good. Do you still remember the times when we use to just lie on the bed and talk our hearts out? Do you miss me as much as i miss you? Darling, i still have dreams about you, but sadly I've got no one to share it with. Will you be mine once again? 

I may have treated you like a trash, told you harsh things but trust me abie! It was never from the heart.I promised i will hurt you or let anyone hurt you. I'm your shield !! Till this very moment I am keeping all my promises. I love you without expectations and now i wish you would love me back.

You're my bestfriend,boyfriend,dad and darling husband!

Every now and then i fall apart, and i need you now tonight and i need you more than anything else.

Baby, i really feel like I'm chasing the shadow. Once upon a time i was falling in love and now I'm only falling apart. Once upon a time there was light in my life and now there is only love in the dark.

You know if i were given one chance to do whatever i want with time i would go back and change what went wrong between us. But as you said it's not easy to feel the same again, i just wish you would give us another try ;( Your heart is my home, now I'm homeless :(

To all the girls :)

Because of girls like you, we kinda girls get bad name. :(

Don't get what i mean? Well, let me explain it to you darling ! This goes to all girls who are trying to prove something really stupid.

Girls, in order for us to survive in this world we need DIGNITY ! And the only way to get that is by not being a SLUT,CHEAP ASS,DESPERADO or etc etc. I've seen, lately there are many girls who are basically being cheap. If you're lack of attention get it from ONE guy not the whole world.Showing your cleavage or taking pictures that will expose you in certain ways, don't think guys will drool over you. They will either just look at you and give the "sarcastic laughter" or even better, they will start planning how to get between your legs. If you're getting a boyfriend just because of your appearance, trust me it WONT last !! Not even in the next 7 generations ! -______-

I don't blame guys who actually have sex with you kinda girl. I don't see how wrong it can be to actually screw you? Isn't that what you girls are working hard to get? 

To the ones who has a bf, please appreciate your bf and stick with them. Some of us over here are wishing we did not screw things or lost our bf's. Don't flirt when you're in a relationship, it's the worse thing you can ever give to the person who loves you more than they love themselves. If you're telling me that at this "age" you should flirt then DON'T get committed and if you're committed then DON'T FLIRT. See, life's full of choice so choose wisely. As time goes by, we girls are suppose to gain experiences and learn from it. Mold ourselves to be perfect and to be respected for what we are. 

Be choosy when it comes to guys, flirt but keep a limit to it. Nobody is asking you to lock yourself at home and not look at the real world and keep away from guys ! LEARN and DON'T REPEAT. 

Girls, when you're about to be a slut, just keep your mom in your mind. How would you feel if anyone called your mom a SLUT? :O 

Started thinking, how would you mom feel if anyone calls her daughter a SLUT? ;(

I'm here saying this because I've learned and still learning. I know and i would like to share. I was dumb enough to learn the hard way when i could just learn through observation. 

Be a good example to your future daughter, have fun ! But make sure it always stays as a SECRET.

Don't let the secret out, then your life is ruined. 

Lastly, from my point of view ! Boys, thanks for teaching me, using me and dumping me. I learned and I've became cautious in life. :)

Without the wrong one, i wouldn't have know who is the right one for me. 

p/s i hope you girls are not offended but at the same time if you'll don't get offended that shows how dumb you really are :)

Good day ladies :)

Duran Duran - Ordinary World

I love you !

Here, i am writing about this woman i feel like i've known all my life. She's one woman who practically adopted me as her sister/child/friend and till today she is being here. In thin and thick she is the only one i look for! Sometimes, i feel for all the things she has done and all the time she has sacrificed for me maybe i did not pay her back and make her feel appreciated ! But today, I'm writing this just to let you know how much you mean to me. I may have showed you my mood swing but it doesn't mean i don't like you. It's just that when someone gets so comfortable they intend to show their true color and that's what i did. I'm sorry !
I got to know her through my brother. But today even though they've gone on their own ways, she still treats me the same. The first time i got to know was on Diwali, LOL ! Trust me, i could see in her face how much she was freaking out. We weren't close and we did not click on the spot. But as time pass by, i knew she is one gem of a person. She has a good sense of humor, super generous, a good baker, talkative, animal lover and etc. In short i would say, she's one of a kind ! When i finished my f5 and left to Sandakan,Sabah that's when we actually got really close. She was there. texting me almost every weekend just to check on me. I'm lucky that she was being by my side at all time. There wasn't a time she did not tear and share her sadness with me and she has always included me in her happiness too. I love her for what she is. During the times when i was going through turmoils, she was there guiding me and cheering me up. When i enrolled myself in college, she was there supporting and encouraging me. I still remember those times, when finals are nearing she would actually stay awake with me and study. It is all golden memories which i will cherish each day of my life. Thank you !
I just want you to know that people will change like season and people come and go. But no matter what happens and where i will be, i will always love you with all my heart. You've been there for me and it's a promise that i will be there for you.
I dedicate this for you,
Vanapriya Sarawana.

p/s i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you !

The Best Love Story!

October 18,2007 an incident took place. A girl randomly got to know a guy through the net. They chit chatted and through the net the girl started falling for him. It was love at first time, the feeling she had for him was a real beautiful one and finnaly before the himself could utter the word she asked him for his number. That was the time they beginned to be closer and closer and closer. Life isn't always the way you want it to which the girl started realizing. She thought bottling her feelings up aren't gonna be help so she decided to actually confess to the guy that she loves him. One night after Diwali, probably around December she confessed her feelings to the guy but he like a typical JERK did not accept her and they lost contact for almost two or more months. 

At that gap, the girl still was thinking and missing the guy very much but she felt like he did not like her not even a bit !

Then one night, the guy came back to her life :) Yeah, she was the mosst happiest person living on earth.

She never did stop pursuing him, so once again that bold and brave girl confessed her feelings towards that guy but at this very moment she told herself she is not going to give up because she knew how lucky she would be to have him in her life.

But looking at him, she did not give any answer. After that she decided to be quiet and just let things happen on its own.

They were close friends but she lost faith little by little. :(

Finally, few days after new year the girl's grandmother was admitted at the hospital and things were not good at her side.

At that moment, the guy which she loves was being there and giving her company through the tough time.

And again, that silly girl fell for him even more and at 6am she confessed her feeling for him again. :)

She is one girl who doesnt give up, innit? :D

So that's when the guy actually felt her and told to the girl that he would need some time and getting an answer from him was something really good. That girl told the guy he could take as much time as he wants. :)

Guess how long he took?

:))))

Blady seven freaking month, and that girl actually waited for him wit all the patience in the world.

So yeah, after that April 18 2009 they officially became a happy couple. They were the sweetest couple ever !

Life was really good with him, but things did not turn out to be the way she thought it would be.

They broke up after being together for like 2years and few months? Yeah, it might not be like other couple who were together for 8 years and stuff but what they had and the memories they shared was beautiful

They've moved on in life and now they've become strangers once again.

So yeah, why did i waste my time typing out this note? Who is the girl and guy?

Lets make them random people who did their part and when off in their own way once the drama was over.

Chickz and Dudez, seriously life is full of shits. :) Expect the unexpected! And if at all you love a girl or a guy i would say don't love him/her like there is no one else in this world cos in the end it's going to eat you up alive if you find out they're not the one meant for you.

p/s i hope my english is fine :p

Lovess,

Archana Devi :)

The Break Up Survivor

You're my favourite break up story. It's been more than 3months I'm here all alone! This feeling has brought me nothing but sorrowness. The pain of letting go, the pain of walking away, the pain of pretending and etc etc. Are feeling you feeling the same boo? I bet my life, I've became the last person you ever think of, wait !! Am i even in  the list today? :) I ain't mad baby, I'm just upset and disappointed. How did you manage to change yourself to became the person I never thought you would? I fight, i cried, i tried ! Now, I'm walking away. Darling, it doesn't mean I dont love you or I'm afraid to lose you. Furthermore, there is nothing to lose because I've already lost. I'm walking away because i see happiness in your face when I'm not there. The least i can give you right now is this ! Don't you see how much i love you? I've always made you my number one and i guess that where i when wrong. There are many words left unsaid, feelings which are not felt ! You may think I ain't keeping my promises but the fact is I'm still here keeping all my promises close to my heart. What happened to all the good times we had? To all the promises you made. I'm here, all by myself convincing and trying to make myself better, saying " you lost me, i gained many" I thank you for all the things and memories we've shared. I think about you all the time boo, i dream bout you all day long ! You changed me to be someone who i was never meant to be. What hurts the most is the fact that i was so close to you and i had to watch you walk away. How can feelings fade? :(

Baby, I wish you would know how much i've missed you, how much i want you and most of all how much i NEED you.

I've never seen you next to never thats why I saw FOREVER. But i guess you did not see me in that way.

I agree, I took you for granted but now I've came to my realization. Am i just too late? Can't you see baby, you've got me going crazy.

I'm here wondering how can i survive this loneliness. I would risk anything and let go everything just to be with you.

I'm caught up in a circle, confusion is nothing new. Flashback is haunting me ! 

The day i thought everything was perfect that's when things started falling apart. You promised me that you would catch me when i fall !! Was it all a lie? Hurmmmm, after all my pictures fade and darkness has turned to gray.

Watching through the window, I'm wondering if you're okay?!

My heart still says it's YOU and ONLY YOU, but does your heart still says the same? Was i just another girl in your life or am i THE girl in your life?

Should i thank you or should i screw you? Should i love you or should i hate you? I guess I'm torn between all those feeling.

Baby, i felt secured when i was with you ! Now I'm afraid to let myself out again. Since you know i will be lost without you then why did you walk away? Is this a part of your test just so you could know whether I would wait or walk off? Ohh, pls ! Can you see I belong to you?! Every smile i fake today is just to show the world that I've grown to be stronger but no one knows how much of pain I'm going through.

Abie, you know i love you right? Well, i know i do. One day the truth will be revealed and i hope it wont be too late. Come back to me while I'm still waiting! I don't know how long i can go through but i will fight this battle and become the person you first got to know on October18,2007!

The last time we met was on the 20/08/2011. I know I've lost you, but sometimes what has gone missing can be found once again.

I still remember how you look and how you frown when you were with me. I can still feel the barrier we've created. It was like meeting someone you never knew. The pain was something i wish nobody would go through.

The last time i hugged you, i smelled you and had you wrapped around my arms. That was the beautiful moments i will always cherish.

Bye baby! 

p/s ilyhubby!

Grown to be stronger

I've always told myself to move on, to ignore you and just get a life. I tried but i failed not once not twice. But i started realizing ever since you started ignoring me and treating me like a dirt. I've became the last person you ever think of. You really need to know that you ignorance has made me to be stronger. Yeah, i said i'm STRONGER. It's true that i miss you, but not you just the old you is what i miss the most. I've learned that when my world was falling apart the person who was there for me are my friends. I thank god, to give me friends are genuinely nice and to love me for who i am. The pain that you gave me never will i forget. I promised that i will always love and be there for you and till this very moment i am keeping my words. I've wasted my time crying over something that i know i will never get. Whenever they told, he is not worth your tears, i stood up for you and told them you worth every drop. I really was hope i won't get disappointed. But you turned out to be a disappointment in my life.