Racism is stupidity!

We live in a country where we're consist of Malay, Chinese and Indian! Not to forget how about the Sikh and Christians? So much of talking about One Malaysia! I don't see any changes.
That awkward moment when you enter your classroom and guess what happens! The Malays sits with their kind, Chinese speaks their language, Indian does both, sitting with their clan and talking in their language like they're the only with that Tamil language. 
Hey, it a fucking classroom for heaven sake. What has happened to being a team and helping each other out? Being a family and guiding each other? Is it in your heart still? Is it still stored in your fucking brains or did you just flush it down the toilet? 
So I heard you're only giving scholarships for bumiputra? Dafuq!!! What happens to the rest of us then?
Sit at the road side and start begging eh? Ini macam tak boleh lar bro, do you know what "sama rata" means? Fucking treat us like one of you, not a fucking alien for god forbidden sake.
I use to be a kid who was so proud to be a Malaysian, but looking at the situation now, i fucking hate living in this country already.
Despite all the bad stuff that I've been observing for the past few years, there is one thing that I am proud off thou..
When I was still in high school, I had the best moment with my friends. Yeah, their identification cards stated that they were different races, but we treated each other more than a friend. We were a family. That was what our class teacher Mr.***** thought us. He thought us that we should not differentiate people with the skin tone, eye color, language they speak, food the eat or things they believe in. Because in the end when we die, our ashes all just the same.
So lately, I've been going out a lot. :) Well, hello!! I am after all a wild, free, crazy teenager.
When I actually walk in the malls or wherever you can think off, why do you people stare like you've never seen a human before?
Weyh, i aint gonna eat you up, i just came to shop. =="
Even our late MJ sang a song about it. IT DON'T MATTER IF YOU'RE BLACK OR WHITE.

We live in a country, oopps no.. We actually live in a world where we're labelled! And being labelled isn't good for any of us or the future generations.Remember, we're the generators of the world after all. The root which is our parents, teachers and all those politicians. You guys should set a good example on how we should be, do not do DRAMA because we're smart enough to differentiate politics, dramas and reality.

We were not born yesterday okay. =="

DON'T BE RACIST, BE LIKE A PANDA. THEY'RE BLACK, WHITE AND ASIAN. :)

p/s  This blog is not created by me to offend anything, i only write what comes in my mind. So don't fucking read this and plan on fucking sue-ing me. :) In anyways, i did not and will not hate our country or state out the person, places or whatever you can think of name. Muahhhhhzzz, SAY NO TO RACISM, COS IT'S JUST STUPID.

Indian Parents.

No, I am not being Russell Peters now! This is serious.


It is seriously not easy to live in an Indian family especially when you're a girl. Going out is wrong, staying over is wrong, talking on the phone is wrong, coming home late is wrong, having many guy friends is wrong! But my favorite is "If you have a bf and you guys break up, then any other guy you eventually fall for is not acceptable especially when your parents are close to your ex".

So yeah, this how the story of my life goes. It's been more than 6 months since I broke up! My mom has known my ex ever since I was still his friend. And when we coupled, initially she didn't know but as soon as she found out, surprisingly she did not go against it but was actually fine with the fact that I had a boyfriend at the age 16! We were together for 2years and 5months but eventually things got out of hand and it was time to time decision on what is the best for us. Decision taken, to be apart is the best decision we've ever taken.

Whether I had a hard time on getting over my ex or not, I don't know but my mom is still having a hard time.

Just like everyone else who needed someone when they broke I too found someone who is today very special to me. He isn't my boyfriend nor is my friend. He is simply someone really special to me and will always remain special.

We like each other very much but there is still something which is holding us back from being together for real. I am not sure about him, but there is few reasons why I am still not being in a relationship. First of all would my mom who isn't agreeing on giving him a chance and getting to know him! Secondly, to me would be the fact that he is looking for someone he wants to get married too but how sure am I suppose to be that it is me he is going to get married to? Furthermore, future is not for us to say. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him for any reason. If staying as his friend is the only way for me to be close than I would even sacrifice that for me.

Ok, forget about me and my whole story!!

Talking about Indian Parents! In my case, my MOM!

So i confessed to her that I am getting to know this guy! BOOM!!! My momma got so offended and without even knowing she freaking hate him?

Wait, did I go wrong for telling her the truth about what is going on in my life? Tell me if I was wrong because I feel I did what no daughter would do which is CONFESSING! She doesn't want to talk about him, she doesn't want to know. She just doesn't want anything that has to do with him. This thing is very hurting for me and also for him. :(

I want to be with him so bad but she likes my ex so much and she wants me to be with him which is unacceptable because I will never in a million years jump into that hole.

Ma, I ain't saying you're bad! I love you with all my heart, but you just don't understand sometimes.

I've learned one thing, living with Indian Parents is like living in a battlefield. They've got all the weapon but you stand alone there either waiting to die or to just surrender and be on their side. I've decided to stand for myself at the same be on their side. It's time to use some brain and get things worked out. Even if things don't work out between me and him, I will want my mom to know that I love him and whoever I am going to marry she will have to treat him right too. 

Darling.

I LOVE YOU.

I hope, pray and wish to see a future with you.

:'(

Bad day.

I am very sorry for whatever i've done and said. I didn't do it in purpose. :(
I should have just stayed away and avoided, but i didn't see this coming..
How should I know that this is where we will end up? We were so good together, how come this storm can break us?
You and I, if we say goodbye. Even the angels will cry..


Baby, i miss you.
What can i do to make it up to you?
I promised that I would behave today and i did all i can. Emotions is over taking us.
:(
I will never forget today or your words. 
Yes you're just my friend. But seriously, you're so special to me and the last thing i want to do to u is to upset or hurt you.
I'm sorry.


Do you think our story is coming to an end?
Because, i believe this isn't the end but just the beginning.
Darling, remember no matter how hard things can be or how bad we're going to get hurt. I promise i will stand by you till you need me no more.
I love you that much sayang, not only for who you are but also for what you are.
I love you in and out darling. :(


I wish i could make you believe that, but again. It is up to you.
Lately, things is getting out of our hands. It's time for us to control the situation and move forward.
Mwahx, i love you bubu.
More than anything. :(

A bad day which turned out to be good in the end.

It was the eve of Valentine's but he screwed my mood. :( I was suppose to finish up doing his gift but I lost my mood so i left it unattended. :( Like every other girls i was hoping that at least he would actually call me and be the first person to wish me but instead I slept feeling fucking miserable and I woke up hoping to feel okay. I told myself to just not think about it and go to college but I couldn't help myself. T.T
Having my period and also losing my mood was the major turn off. Seeing everybody celebrating Valentine's made me even more sadder. I mean, i did not expect any gift or what so ever but at least a wish?? He is such a pig right?
So there i was being all moody in college and having terrible pain so i thought to myself lets message him. I was in pain and he buat "DURH'!!!! :O 
I was very very very piss so i came home and i didn't want to acknowledge him so i slept off.
At about 4pm he called me saying that he was on his way back and at that moment I did not give a fuck cos I was freaking pissed at him. Then, he message to ask if I've eaten or not and i replied "NO".
After a couple of minutes, he called me up and told me to come downstairs and when I when down, I saw him out of my house gate standing with a packet of rojak. :) So as i when in my house after taking the rojak packet to put it in a bowl and when I came out of my house. He was there, sitting on my swing with a card and 3stalk of roses.
SPEECHLESS!!!!
So me with a bowl in my hand and him in front of me.. I didn't know what to do. :O
But i have to say, that monkey melted my heart like fuck. :)
Then, got a hug and kiss from him and we ate the rojak together. I wish he didn't had to go back thou.
Gahhh, bubu you da best. I loveeeeee you so freaggin much! <3<3<3
At the same time, i had you too. :@


Muahhhxxxxxxxxxx!! My Valentine's day did not turn out to be "just" Tuesday after all. 
Thank you sayang, i love you.

The flower in my garden.

Today, she has turned 14. Wahh, my piggy cousin is a big girl now. Jk jk!! But yeah, sorry deyh I couldn't get you any gift. Maafkan okay? Been busy and pokai. But hey, I hope this message is a way to make it up to you.


Dear, 
Divythra


We've had random conversation, unsettled fights, gossips and we've spend almost all our life's together. You've made my life beautiful and without you, life wouldn't be the same. <3
You're the flower in my garden.(theweirdone)
Happy 14th Birthday babygirl. May god bless you and I hope and wish the best for you.


Never in a million years change or let anyone change you. I know you're studying in assunta but please don't change to become bisexual or lesbian kays. :P
Also, darling girl. Having a boyfriend at this age isn't wrong but just remember to ALWAYS tell me what's going on kay.
Anything and everything I'm here to teach and correct you.
I hope to see you soon and have some AWESOME time. :)


Not to forget, smart girl. Please concentrate on your studies too. Don't let anything bring you or your studies down.
Love yah.

Mmmm, random shiat.

The cupid has been a bad boy lately. :)

Love is not expressed by our lips but through our eyes,

Eyes does not speak normal words but it let's us turn our words into poetry,

Poetry is not taken from any sort of books but each and every line is from our heart.

When you're in front of me, my heart skips a beat.

The only way to punish me when I do any sort of mistake is to kiss me. 

The pathway you walk is where my heart follows,

You've made my entire life beautiful!

The first time I got to know the real meaning of love,

The first time I laid my eyes on you,

I hope this dream doesn't end,

Because if this dream end, then there is no point of me living a life.

Everything about you makes me happy!

I miss those days when you kiss me at night..
I miss the way we sleep..Like there is no sunrise!
Like the taste of your lips..
I miss the way we breath.
Now I miss everything about you!
I see your eyes every time I close mine..
Where I belong to when I'm not around you,
It's like I'm not with you. :(
Half of my heart got a grip on this situation,
other half takes times..
You make me rise up like the tide the moment your lips meet mine.
I'm so glad I found you,

I love being around you.