You're my favourite break up story. It's been more than 3months I'm here all alone! This feeling has brought me nothing but sorrowness. The pain of letting go, the pain of walking away, the pain of pretending and etc etc. Are feeling you feeling the same boo? I bet my life, I've became the last person you ever think of, wait !! Am i even in the list today? :) I ain't mad baby, I'm just upset and disappointed. How did you manage to change yourself to became the person I never thought you would? I fight, i cried, i tried ! Now, I'm walking away. Darling, it doesn't mean I dont love you or I'm afraid to lose you. Furthermore, there is nothing to lose because I've already lost. I'm walking away because i see happiness in your face when I'm not there. The least i can give you right now is this ! Don't you see how much i love you? I've always made you my number one and i guess that where i when wrong. There are many words left unsaid, feelings which are not felt ! You may think I ain't keeping my promises but the fact is I'm still here keeping all my promises close to my heart. What happened to all the good times we had? To all the promises you made. I'm here, all by myself convincing and trying to make myself better, saying " you lost me, i gained many" I thank you for all the things and memories we've shared. I think about you all the time boo, i dream bout you all day long ! You changed me to be someone who i was never meant to be. What hurts the most is the fact that i was so close to you and i had to watch you walk away. How can feelings fade? :(
Baby, I wish you would know how much i've missed you, how much i want you and most of all how much i NEED you.
I've never seen you next to never thats why I saw FOREVER. But i guess you did not see me in that way.
I agree, I took you for granted but now I've came to my realization. Am i just too late? Can't you see baby, you've got me going crazy.
I'm here wondering how can i survive this loneliness. I would risk anything and let go everything just to be with you.
I'm caught up in a circle, confusion is nothing new. Flashback is haunting me !
The day i thought everything was perfect that's when things started falling apart. You promised me that you would catch me when i fall !! Was it all a lie? Hurmmmm, after all my pictures fade and darkness has turned to gray.
Watching through the window, I'm wondering if you're okay?!
My heart still says it's YOU and ONLY YOU, but does your heart still says the same? Was i just another girl in your life or am i THE girl in your life?
Should i thank you or should i screw you? Should i love you or should i hate you? I guess I'm torn between all those feeling.
Baby, i felt secured when i was with you ! Now I'm afraid to let myself out again. Since you know i will be lost without you then why did you walk away? Is this a part of your test just so you could know whether I would wait or walk off? Ohh, pls ! Can you see I belong to you?! Every smile i fake today is just to show the world that I've grown to be stronger but no one knows how much of pain I'm going through.
Abie, you know i love you right? Well, i know i do. One day the truth will be revealed and i hope it wont be too late. Come back to me while I'm still waiting! I don't know how long i can go through but i will fight this battle and become the person you first got to know on October18,2007!
The last time we met was on the 20/08/2011. I know I've lost you, but sometimes what has gone missing can be found once again.
I still remember how you look and how you frown when you were with me. I can still feel the barrier we've created. It was like meeting someone you never knew. The pain was something i wish nobody would go through.
The last time i hugged you, i smelled you and had you wrapped around my arms. That was the beautiful moments i will always cherish.
Bye baby!
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